I will remain with Christ...

I found a great quote recently:

"If anyone proved to me that Christ was outside the truth and it really was so that the truth was outside Christ... then I would prefer to remain with Christ than with the truth."
Fyodor Dostoevsky

I like this! I had a close friend once who told me that he thought less of me intellectually when he found out that I believed in God. He told me that since he did not see any evidence of God, God was patently not true, and thus anyone who believed in a fairy story was clearly not very intelligent.

Is God real? I believe so! But I don't think you can convince people with facts. If you want facts, or evidence though, there is plenty of that. All over the place. But to seek God through facts, you need to be open minded - which my friend certainly was not. It wasn't facts that convinced me. I think for most of my life I sort of hoped God was real, but didn't ever really invest much emotion or energy into this notion. I'd never seen any evidence for myself, and putting myself on the line - making myself vulnerable or open to derision or ridicule if it wasn't true - was my biggest fear. One day my burdens and worries got too much for me to stand up under, and I cried out to God and - to my everlasting gratitude - he answered, and lifted my burdens from me. I'll never forget walking home afterwards, and it felt like previously I'd been carrying around a backpack full of books and now suddenly had just taken it off - the physical feeling of burdens lifted was so strong I felt like if I tripped or missed a step I might fly!

I was catching up with another old friend a while ago, and he said to me "Amy, I hear you've found God! Where was he?" I just smiled and replied, "Well, actually it looks like He was there the whole time..."


I know that just reading lyrics doesn't really capture the spirit of a song, but this song has really captured me at the moment.

Worth It All by FFH from the album, Voice From Home
O Child you’ve never known
How I really feel
Cause you’ve never been shown
O child, you’ve never known
That my love is real
Cause you’ve never been shown
I’m about to show you for myself
So listen baby, You don’t need nobody else – cos:

You are mine, you are loved
You have always been thought of
When you hurt I feel it every time
You are mine, you are loved
And I’m never giving up
Till I’ve dried all the tears you cry

Long before you took a breath
I took your pain upon my chest
I knew your name, I heard you call
It was worth it all
It was worth it all
You are worth it all

O child, it wasn’t fair
How they walked away
Left you standing there
My child, I saw your tears
Was with you everyday
Through the lonely years
I’m about to bring back what they lost
So listen baby
Forget about the cost – cos:

No matter where you go,
I’ll come and find you
You are precious to me…
My everything
No matter what they’ve done
I will restore you
You’re a masterpiece to me…
Only I can see
That underneath the hurt and the pain
Is a picture of me

O child, where did you go
Please don’t walk away
I love you so
So here I come to say

You are mine, you are loved
You have always been thought of
When you hurt I feel it every time
You are mine, you are loved
And I’m never giving up
Till I’ve dried all the tears you cry

Long before you took a breath
I took your pain upon my chest
I knew your name, I heard you call
It was worth it all
It was worth it all
You are worth it all